From Sadness to Joy

When it came time to move into my parent's trailer, there was a lot of sadness from Jazmin. This is something that I was prepared for, as I am a student of my daughter, I know that she gets sad almost every time there is a big change, like a move. She is excited about something new, but sad about leaving where we were. She would say to me many times a day "are you going to miss it here?" (at our old house). I would respond with a yes, I will. We LOVE Lake Tahoe, it is so beautiful and breathe taking! Where we were living though, was in a duplex where you could not see the Lake and the neighbors, well, the neighbors were not giving me good vibes. So I would not miss that. 

When the plans changed so quickly from going into our RV to my parent's trailer, I had expected the kids to not be happy about it, because to be honest I was not. The one thing we talked about when deciding to go Full Time, was NOT wanting to be "stuck" some where for too long. So that was what Jazmin was thinking about...a lot. She kept saying how frustrating it was going to be and how it would not be fun. 

In my mind, I was right there with her, however I knew we had no other options in this moment. I also knew that if I changed my whole being into thinking that all will be well, then the kids will follow. They always seem to follow my true feelings inside. If I am stressed, they seem to be too. If I am upset, then arguments escalate. BUT if I am happy, they are too. If I am content, they are too. Sometimes it is hard to make the shift, sometimes, I want to wallow in the misery. BUT that does not serve anyone. 

So we got into the trailer, packed in, like no where to move, because I had not had time to figure out where to put everything. The kids started riding the trikes. It turns out (which I had a suspicion that it might) the RV Park is a wonderful place to ride. Or "joy ride" as Alex likes to call it. They rode and rode and rode and talked and talked. In the first few days Jazmin came in to the trailer and said "this is so much fun. I love it." 

I said to her "that is awesome! I am glad it is not frustrating!" With a smile to her, she knew what I was talking about.